marvelous

I am fucking upset because

2010-06-18T21:34:00.005+08:00

Germany fucking lost but shut the fuck up Serbia because you only scored like a minute after Klose left. You were just lucky. Lucky enough to also break Germany's record for losing a group match for the first time since the first FIFA. I swear I became a rage toon when the time went off. And the penalty, WTF. That wasn't even a good save if you say Podolski's shot was terrible(though I must admit Podolski had more than enough chances to put the ball in, but its ok, he's still cute).

OH AND YEA, WHAT WAS UP WITH THE REFEREE. So many yellow cards were given to the Germany players and most of them were unreasonable. Klose's red card was another bitch one. Does he hate the Germans or something?!

Ok whatever. Germany must win Ghana!!!! I love Germany. GO GERMANY. If only Ballack could play :(

whamsters

2010-06-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for picnic on Sunday with Kw, Charishma, Shan, Weili, Lisa, Glenda & Shereen. Or WHAMSTER. Haha we made it up like 5 secs before our first game started at some annual netball carnival :} So yea, looking 4wardzzzz

Oh and ya ya idgaf about you and your dogs. I mean friends.

you know its rea-a-a-a-l

2010-06-15T21:19:00.003+08:00

Hi today is such a long day. 1 minute seemed equivalent to like 100hrs -_- Anyway, I'm gonna meet Claire tomorrow for lunch hehehe ^_^ And then Kaiwei at night for Karate Kid. I hope it's good!! Excited pig~

Zzzzzzzzz I'm actually quite bored. I've been on Lj lately, that explains my disappearance :3 H3h3h3 shykatz. Ok WTF. Ummm baiiiiz I need t update S w things man >:) Oh ya, before I forget, YOU HAVEN'T TEXTED ME!! I'm sure you know who you are, we owe each other brkfst :@ Haha I'm so lame ok bye.

n0 L1F3 ftw

2010-06-09T08:58:00.004+08:00

I'm living the wonderful cycle of no life.
Hahaha what the hell, but its true. All I ever do is go for trainings and shit like that. I really have no mood to go out like for example today. Ugh I have to go all the way to Yishun to meet the rest?! Wtf it's like Boon Lay, Lakeside, Chinese Garden, Jurong East, Bukit Batok, is it Gombak?(Hahaha), Yew Tee, CCK, then wtv but I know I must pass Woodlands and all... Scarily long. I HATE THE RED LINE. It's so long!!!!!!

Ohhh ok anyway, I'm kinda, KINDA happy with my no-life l1f3.

high

2010-06-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

This week isn't going pretty well.

so long

2010-06-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me

I want to be a high net worth individual. I'd rather have all the money in the world than none. And I'd rather be rich & unhappy than otherwise. Hahaha what the hell.

to the left, losers

2010-06-03T20:30:00.003+08:00

if you're stupid & you know it, believe everything i say here.

you are totally insulting your own intelligence~~~

Nn

2010-06-02T20:01:00.002+08:00

I want those Helvetica Alphabet shirts from American Apparel :( I think A. Apparel's basic tees are the best around!!

Anyway, training tomorrow and then YOG on Friday. Ah shingz, why am I not dead yet? It's taking up the whole of June hols pls. Hm, but chalet this Friday will be awesome, I hope.

Hahahaha ok I still have like assignments & whatsoever :@

I'm like almost fully booked by retards this holidays hahahaha my friends are the best ♥

Gb

slap yourself

2010-05-31T21:19:00.002+08:00

X: Oh hi, you wanna go blablabla?
Y: Oh suree, can _ come too?
X: _|_

you fucking lesbian

spaces in between

2010-05-30T21:02:00.004+08:00

I d o n ' t k n o w w h a t t o w r i t e a b o u t

But anyways, hi :}
I'm like half bored, half not. Half looking forward for tomorrow, half not. Half awake, half not. Half sane, half not.

I'm gonna close this blog soon. It's so old, & it's dying.

Alright, bye. I should sleep early tonight cos it's gonna be a long day tomorrow :O

arms of an angel

2010-05-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

What I enjoyed today...

STC's Got Talent
Chem lesson :}
Free period.............
Community singing with classmates during YOG
Dinner with Euns, Liz, Siti, Sharmila, Megan pecan nutz, Linda, Devina, Elvira, Rebecca Y, & Charishma.

Dinner was really awesome keke. Sadly, no pictures were taken because nobody brought their cameras :{

Anyway, Shane's going back to The Philippines tonight/next morning! Hope she'll have a safe flight back~ Sleepover @ either Megan's or Eunice's tomorrow ^_^ Can't wait...

Ok I'm gonna shower soon & then sleep.

I'm drizzle & you're hurricane

2010-05-25T21:31:00.002+08:00

I love my friends. I love this year so far. Yea, maybe I've lost 1 or 2 amazing ones but it's okay, I have 15 more awesome ones. Hahaha I literally counted those who never fail to make me happy hehehehehe

Today was really good ^_^

More ups than downs :}

And this is why my life sucks

2010-05-22T10:50:00.002+08:00

So here it is: I want to talk to the finest girl I've seen in my life so far.

This is so crappy & I'm fucking sad now. It's gonna rain soon, it's probably my tears. It could be that much if I start crying now. I'm so full of shit. My life right now is a living shithole.

best day

2010-05-21T20:57:00.003+08:00

I can't get it out of my mind. I was looking at you the whole time you were on the drums. You are amazing.

i hope it gives you hell

2010-05-19T19:39:00.002+08:00

I need to start bucking up for SS. It's always the stupid one pulling my C. Humans down. Stupid.

Ok today was great. I got B for F&N and Math :} I'm quite relieved~ MT was free period & we had to combine classes w the TL students. Played Murderer w a whole bunch of other people from j/mm & some from the exp ML class. Like cool only~ We got the teacher screaming for silence rofl but Mrs Chu just had to call us down for F&N like 20mins earlier :@ I was so sleepy and my sleepiness was contagious. Everyone slept after I did.

Went to meet Em w Kw after school ^_^ She's so greenzzzz. Love Emily & Kaiwei man~ H8 you Rena for not coming today :{

Kkk, this looks like a summary for half a year.

i am stupid

2010-05-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

Kw: Who lives on a pineapple tree under the sea?

HAHAHAHA stupid gal.

Anyway, I'm so scared for my Math P2. I got only like 35/50 for my P1, that means I have to score quite a bit for P2. I also did badly for Chem. I should have studied harder but whatever. I still got higher than some who studied like nuts for it. HAHA what a way to make myself feel better. Failed A/cs as expected :@ Dearest friend Charishma got like A2 and I think Megan got A1, if not A2. Damn all those out there who can do POA effortlessly. I got B4 for English & C6 for Malay~ Alright I can't wait for the other papers.

Why can't I be smarter. Sigh.

you're a freak

2010-05-17T20:22:00.003+08:00

I know my strong dislike for you but I don't hate you and you're not my enemy. You are such a freak. And honestly, I'm blaming it entirely on you for what you've made them put me through. Even if they personally hate me. But then again, what did I even do to them in the first place?

This was ttly distracting me while I was playing with my dear Hey Moshi~~ I don't wanna lose the bet :{ Sobsss haha!

more to life

2010-05-16T21:16:00.001+08:00

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on.

sobs....

2010-05-15T21:14:00.001+08:00

You're still a part of everything I do.
You're on my heart just like a tattoo,
I'll always have you.

This is crap

for me we'll never be too far

2010-05-13T18:54:00.005+08:00

Wow, The Last Song is the best movie I've ever watched. It wasn't as incomplete as Dear John too.

I think Miley Cyrus & Liam Hemsworth look good together!! Shit I'm sorry, I really am not over the movie. Oh right... I cried like as if someone died or something. Yknw, the whole father-daughter-son thing awwww :(

Alright, enough with the movie? Had pasta & pizza for lunch with Liz, Euns & Sharmila~~ Whoa I love food?!!! Yes I love food. Ya no wonder I'm so fucking fat now hhahahaha. Alrighto~ Going to the gym with Liz tmr anyway but we're probably gonna eat more than we lost.

Wooo I'm happy :} Bye~

when I think of love, I think of you.

awwwww

2010-05-12T21:43:00.003+08:00

I was trying to find my usb cable and then I found a bunch of funny letters. I feel so happy. My friends are really cute :) Ohhhh & then I saw x's..... Idk how to feel but I won't deny that I was happy when I was with you.

Alright so I still haven't found my usb cable :{

Bye! LAST PAPER TMR :D

every step I'm taking

2010-05-11T19:48:00.003+08:00

So Math P1 was really easy!!!! Love math
Had breakfast with Euns, Liz, Chemane & Sharmila~~ Went to Chemane's aft that for a swim. So fun but the sun was so hot, I drowned in my own sweat before I even got in -.- I went up to her house and it's so cute & cozy. Went to Eunice's after that to bake ^_^ Wow today's so fun :) Made brownies and cookies & cream (L)

Sigh............... I'm so sad. Sobs... A MATH GIRLS DON'T NEED TO GO TO SCH TMR:( Ugh. I swr I can never find a better side of POA. So Eliz & I plan to write our names & draw lines & then slp for the rest of the damn paper. How cool? :) I'm pretty sure we won't be the only ppl doing it~

Bye :} Chemane is being rly kpo to the max :@

Almost over

2010-05-10T14:47:00.002+08:00

NOW I'm left with Math P1, A/c & Chem.

This is true happiness (lessthanthree)

Hahahahah I cannot wait :D The Last Song + Seoul Garden. So gr8 ^_^

lookin' at you & my heart loves the view

2010-05-07T21:19:00.004+08:00

I feel so great now that Geog is o-v-e-r ^_^
This calls for a celebrationnnnnnn. Ok maybe after Math P1?? Or perhaps Chem.

I'm totally gonna catch The Last Song AS SOON AS Chem Paper ends!
I'm sorry, I honestly don't know why I'm so happy myself. I'm just really satisfied now and I can't be happier.

... SO, did it hurt when you fell from heaven??? :}

killer

2010-05-06T18:20:00.006+08:00

GEOG IS SO DRY SO DRY SO DRY IT'S SO DRY IT KILLS

hi.....
I'm left with Geog, Math P1, Chem, Bio & A/c............

Wtf.

More to like 'I still have' -.-

Bye :{

gr8 lyf3

2010-05-04T19:00:00.004+08:00

Harro~

I'M SO PSYCHED FOR JUNE KEKE

June only hahahahaha exams aren't even over killmenow

v little pix sry I'm bored hahahhaha

I'm down in the gutter

2010-05-03T21:02:00.005+08:00

I hate life. I hate it when I feel insignificant. I hate how unfair things can get. I don't care if a million of others are feeling the same way right now, I don't want to feel this way. I'm so fucking useless.

in other words

2010-05-02T20:29:00.002+08:00

Hi I'm rly bored now.
Can I please be preoccupied more often?
I'm always left with nothing to do at night. I wish I had animals lying all over my room except for my study table. Then, I wouldn't dare to move & I'd do my work. Ok in fear though. Ah shingz, you get my point. I'm just bored.

Can I pretend that airplanes in the night sky, are like shooting stars? I really could use ~~a wish~~ you right now.

:(

perfect

2010-05-02T13:43:00.001+08:00

If this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up,
because you know I'll be there.

keep dead silent

2010-04-29T21:18:00.002+08:00

SS is down :> Didn't do well but one less subject to worry about. I really need my Geog marks to compensate for my predictable grade 5 for SS. Oh how I hate you SS.

Anyway, went to the gym w Shan aft the papers~ I feel so... Complete now.

Ha ha ha ha okay whattttt

dear

2010-04-27T21:15:00.001+08:00

B Div '10
Pls train hard for SZ next yr :{ We rly need t improve a lot.

love, where is your fire?

2010-04-24T21:45:00.003+08:00

I don’t know but, I think I may be
Fallin’ for you, dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I know you better
I am trying, not to tell you
But I want to,
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

Oh shit I think I rly like you??

I'm not in it to win it, I'm in it for you

2010-04-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

sighx100000

Gladys made me say this over & over agn during math class:

wo xi huan _ _ _ - _ _. ta shi wo de nu pen you

Aft-exams-life will be damn easy & free. I cannot wait. May will be a good month~!

Bye :}

I just haven't met you yet

2010-04-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

If you know how I feel about you right now, and things go well, I swear I'd forget everything and go for you w all I've got.

:{

you are..

2010-04-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

I miss some things.
Can I just kill myself? I'm looking forward to a certain day cos I'm pretty sure I'd see you there and goodness, even if I do, I doubt you'd notice me.

:{

exams are coming!

2010-04-20T18:24:00.003+08:00

I think I like you? Hahaha aw man.

hungry now

2010-04-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

I'll endure the night,
For the promise of light.

Can everybody stop thinking I'm attached to xxx just because of a picture? Stop it. I don't even like her. & & & YOU can you STOP being such a flirt. So gross. I don't like you either. Yucks all these ppl, yucks.

Anyway, Shane's party wasn't bad, but I felt like puking half the time so I stuffed fruits in my mouth. But it was still fun. We fcking cheered for Albirex Niigata from her balcony window. And I caught a bit of NSL too! Love her area pls.

Alrighto, gna slp now my room is freaking hot even w the aircon switched on. Carnival tmr..... sigh

Bye~

pls watch this if you haven't!!

2010-04-17T09:57:00.000+08:00

wazzupppp

HAHAHAHAHA

Amarelo Casa

2010-04-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

You're a part time lover
& a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you.

Sports day is tmr!!
Kkkk I hope Catherine House will win :>

Anyway, I wanna play v v v v well on Sunday. I hope I can play rly well, so at least I wouldn't be such a disappointment.. sigh.

Bye~

iTunes on shuffle

2010-04-12T21:07:00.003+08:00

How are you feeling today?
I Never Told You

Will you get far in life?
Disgusting (-.-)

How do your friends see you?
Over My Head

Will you get married?
Roses (Hahahahaa wth!)

What's the story of your life like?
Airplanes

What's secondary school life like?
Breakeven (omg wtf)

How can you get ahead in life?
Chasing Cars

How do you feel about your friends?
You Picked Me (Lol I love u friends~)

Describe them.
Halo (HAHAHAHA)

What's tomorrow gonna be like?
Bad Romance (stil laughin')

What's in store for the weekend?
All The Right Moves

Describe yourself.
The Blower's Daughter

Decribe your parents.
No Air (HAH)

How's your life going?
When I Look At You ........

What song will they play at your funeral?
White Flag

How does the world see you?
Future Love (LOL)

Will you have a happy life?
Boston ..?

What do your friends really think of you?
VCR

Do people secretly lust after you?
Little Bit hahahaha

How do I make myself happy?
Because You Live

What should you do with your life?
One Less Lonely Girl

Will you have children?
Scars

before the storm

2010-04-11T22:22:00.004+08:00

Standing out in the rain,
Knowing that it's really over-
Please don't leave me alone.

I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing that I'll never hold you,
Like I did before the storm.

when will I see your face again

2010-04-10T18:50:00.003+08:00

Maybe I'll look forward to the next Netball Nations or the next Zonals but I doubt she'd be there. Hahaha wtf :/

kul katz

2010-04-08T21:06:00.004+08:00

Had lunch & caught a movie after that with Kaiwei today :> & Today was a good day cos almost everybody got wet together while dancing & running in the rain~~ And we were all singing to You're Beautiful too! How cool of us? ^^

take my mind off

2010-04-07T22:28:00.002+08:00

I have to be stronger than others to survive in this world. I can't let others bring me down. I'm not gonna be another sore loser dwelling over the fucking littlest matter, thinking it's the end of my life. I need to straighten up my life a bit. To start off, I am thankful I wasn't one of the many who fell into the students-at-academic-risk category. & I'm not planning to be complacent either.

Sorry but I may pull off as a whole looking smart wtv shit but I'm rly not. I'm like the laziest thing alive and even a sloth can beat me anytime. But I'm suddenly turning into the grossest bitch. I'm being so competitive towards things like~~getting 50/50 for accounts~~. It's achievable anyways-.- Ahhh I'm just gna end shit with: training was btr today. The coach wasn't that bad anyways.

Kk bye.

2010-04-07T22:02:00.004+08:00

Let it be.

uptown girl

2010-04-06T21:38:00.001+08:00

Wow I'm rly gna die tmr in class.
I have no idea what t do for F&N, in other words, I'll die.
& thrs trng too tmr~ I hope that will relief my muscle ache :<

edit:
HI I'm majorly pissed now.
I rly have no piece of shitass clue on what to do fr F&N.
Ok gna try harder now. Bye.

save me

2010-04-04T14:37:00.001+08:00

Oh my God.
Oh my God.
Oh my God.
Oh my God.
Oh my God.
Oh my God.

i'm lovin' angels instead

2010-04-03T22:56:00.005+08:00

I need more stamina.
I need to be smarter.
I need to stay out of................

edit:
But oh dear God why is she so similar to _.
so. confusing.

peanut butter & jelly otter

2010-04-03T00:32:00.002+08:00

hi :>

Ee I just read my previous post. So disgusting. Anyway, can't wait for 18th April cos Kw, C & I will be up for some friendly and hehe we can make new friends~ I hope we get cool people in our team ^.^ I need t run more often though, so fat like cow now gross only. Anyway, When I Look At You is playing in my head.

Optional. Read if you wanna but keep negative comments t yourself~! thx :>

Hmm, I think Didi Benami deserved a 2nd chance cos she rly can sing so since she's already out, I hope some company would take her in cos as I said, she rly can sing and I swr Tim Urban isn't cute and he can't sing either. I don't understand why he's still around. Lee Dewyze for the win \m/ And although Aaron Kelly has a great voice, I think his a little feminine. Hm, Crystal Bowersox isn't too bad. So as Casey James. I thought Andrew Garcia was Mexican. Is he? Lubis said he's Filipino...?

Ok enough?

I'm gonna run tmr. Yea, neon devil devil neon neon, u btr run run run run run~

just so you know

2010-04-02T08:58:00.002+08:00

If you're not gonna talk to me for a day, don't talk to me at all.

I've had enough of you. I'm not gonna waste my time to personally tell you this. I can tell you are enjoying your life now so wtf leave me alone already.

mercy

2010-03-28T13:18:00.002+08:00

I think the TV series Mercy is damn good. I'm watching Glee now.

"I guess that's love for you. I know it seems weird that I'm helping Finn with Quinn, but rest assured, it's all part of a master plan. No matter what I do, or how much I assist him with his ballad, she's going to end up disappointing him and breaking his heart. And then, he'll be crying into my shoulder pads."

- Kurt, Glee.

it's a sin to kill mockingbirds

2010-03-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

You're not a mockingbird. So does that mean...

Whatever.

Just f- off from my life. I can't stand the sight of you, I won't be able to see what's ahead if your shoulder would get any higher.

#YeaISaidIt

hi

2010-03-21T16:38:00.001+08:00

You'd make a beautiful bird on the line. A beautiful bride of Frankenstein! A beautiful drop of iodine; if you were mine, if you were mine, if you were mine.

i'm tired

2010-03-19T21:55:00.001+08:00

You should stop being a whiny bitch. You already have the best girl in the world.

bright eyes

2010-03-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

.
So like, I realized how well-liked you are by others, in a different way - they're drowning me.

every breath you take

2010-03-13T15:10:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK FROM EFL.

4 days 3 nights @ Ubin wasn't as bad as I imagined :> & I'm definitely gonna miss the instructors, Shannon/Edwin/Leisha especially. I feel damn gross & stingy in a way that I don't want ANY OF THE JUNIORS IN STC to get them as camp instructors. Okay, enough.

So I guess everybody had fun and got darker. I'm gonna complete my coursework & assignments soon ^^

Bye :)

edit/

3MM was excellent & I'm really proud of us x1million. And that goes to all the other classes as well :}

closer

2010-03-08T21:54:00.001+08:00

Sch was sch. Training was odd. After-training nonsense was nonsense.

Same. Old. Thing.

I'm rly tired right now & I feel like talking to _.
Ugh, I think I'm just damn bored with life. What am I thinking -.-

(& I got 11/15 for Chemistry by the way.)

world behind my wall

2010-03-07T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hi:>

Met Eliz & Kels this afternoon & then had lunch at IMM with Eunice & Steph. I wasted $$ on something I didn't really eat:< Left them & met Chemane with Kels since she was at JP~ Had Billy Bombers:} Caught a movie after that & then we got quite a lot of food. I spent altogether 30 bucks on food pls. Hahaha I want Yigloo now btw. So we walked to my place and yea:>

Today was good, btr if J had come :@

Bye:}

when you smile, it's like a song

2010-03-04T18:56:00.002+08:00

This feeling is the greatest. Really.

Looking forward for tomorrow. Last paper & then a movie.

fml

You're nothing special to me

2010-03-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

I'm just so sad.

and I'm gonna make my first painful decision tonight. Sounds so ridiculous.

Anyway, I'm going to get on with life, or maybe get a life first and then start living properly, esp if I wna go to ACJC w _. HAHAHA. Okay I'm kidding. This post is epic. All angry @ first and then as it goes on, the continuation made the starting sound like a joke. It's not

full moon

2010-03-01T18:26:00.003+08:00

Geography & Math today. Wasn't as difficult as I expected it to be but I'm not confident. At all.

Skeleton Key - Margot & the Nuclear So and So's

That song is like potentially the best, especially the lyrics. It fits you so perfectly.

So anyway, the class tee is almost done:) I don't know what I'm supposed to do tomorrow. Somebody refused to help cos she thinks this isn't important, so I guess I gotta rush from sch to Queens and from there to meet Aa. Argh. I rly wanna meet her, gosh. Really, thanks a lot. I hope you'll get a million marks for your CAs.

G'bye.

wires and waves

2010-02-28T15:46:00.002+08:00

I feel so uneasy. Right now, all that's on my mind is CAs. I mean, I know I'm not gonna do well but at the same time I'm not doing anything about it at all. I'm gonna read through my Geog notes later and I'll practice Math in 10mins. Why 10 minutes? I'm just lazy to do it in 5. You see what I mean.

I need to watch Dear John.

Dear Lizzy count us in

2010-02-27T21:40:00.002+08:00

Do you think _ is better off with _ or V?

V makes her happy,
She'll know where she'll be,
Right by V's side cos she is the one.

HAHAx100000 Kelli & Butty rocks!

dire

2010-02-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

You're my definition of pure sickness. I don't want to be your friend. I don't need to be your friend and as much as you think you need me, you don't. May I ask, what the fuck are we doing? You know this f/s of ours only stops here. It'll never go beyond whatever. And I am going to stop apologizing to you when it's clearly your fault, and if you are trying to manipulate me, it's not working. Also, stop thinking the reason why I don't like you is because I like someone else. I don't. You're just _.

p e r i o d

And it's clear to see
You're nothing special
You're a skeleton key

this

2010-02-21T18:07:00.002+08:00

I already miss everything.

You've brought the greatest misfortune to us. Don't tell us to live with that, cos we can't. Instead, you should live with that. You've destroyed the team within months, what's next? That must be the grand plan huh?

i don't usually use shortforms when I type

2010-02-19T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hi :)

Today was.. weird. Went t KAP for lunch with @elizbieber & @phorically, then we decided t meet the Juliette & Co and Kamilah looks like a M'sian doctor.

Kk bye, gna go t tumblr nao

Anyway, I kinda like things this way. I don't rly care abt you(Lol, I'm sure you don't even give a fck abt my doings or anything either), and yea, it's just this way. I guess it'll stay this way for a pretty long time & I hope it does.

baby

2010-02-13T17:09:00.001+08:00

My previous post is gross.

Going to Coach's house on Monday for dinner!! ;)

The whole Netball team will be there and omfg, there's space :O

Gb^^

CNY break

2010-02-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna take a breather, I'm not gonna worry so much.

I'll catch up with myself during this long break. You know, the feeling you get when you think you might've lost yourself along the way. Or maybe while going through motions?

Happy Vday btw :)

Gb^^

house practice

2010-02-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

School was school and bio was bio. And bio is science and science is love.

okay w-t-f.

Hmm so I'm really starting to hate Accounts. It's just boring, & I hate boring subjects. So I'm gonna do typical blogging again in 3..2..1..

So yea, reached sch pretty much on time. Assembly in the hall & we saw Charishma's video HAHAHA. That is like full of win. Then it was biology, which was great cos it just is. Then blabla had Geog & SS. Not too bad but yea, some things aren't meant to be written on blogs. Recess, then English, Mrs Rajan lost her voice. Uh huh yea get well soon~~ Combined classes for ML, quite distracting, but whatever, I don't really notice much. Mmm, so VE after that was entertaining, got the final design of the class tee & amazing things are amazing.

Went for house prac, Catherine House sec 2/3 is a cool bunch okay!! Hahaha although I became extremely shy when we had to dance but it was (Y) overall^^ Dinner with usuals aft that, and took a long bus ride home :>

Hehe long post is long yea? Anyway, exams are really coming.. I gotta study now, bye!

Catherine House ftw

skies

2010-02-09T18:50:00.002+08:00

Oh hi!!!!

Ok wtf. Anyway, sch's getting shittier by day & like oh my gosh, I will just fail accounts man.

I don't wanna blog too much on personal happenings because, *coughs*, I'm aware that _ reads my blog. Unsafe~

Gb^^

From Tumblr

2010-02-07T11:45:00.002+08:00

my name is: Nurin Batrisyia Nazri (Y)
this morning i was: having breakfast with my brothers & cousin.
im afraid of: quite a lot. Heights, dark, pain etc
i dream about: Everything I can't have in reality?

Have You Ever…
pictured your crush naked?: Hahaha have I? I can't remember.
been in love: I don't know...
cried when someone died: Mmhmm.
lied: Yep. White lies~
flowers or candy: Have you ever... flowers or candy? Wtv it is I'd pick candy anytime.
tall or short: Have you ever... tall or short? If you're talking about height, I'm not sure.

With The Opposite Sex…
what do you notice first?: Smile & see if dimples are present HAHA.
last person you slow danced with: I don't dance.
worst question to ask: idk
makes you laugh the most?: huh??
makes you smile: ... do not get it
gives you a funny feeling when you see them: still do not get it.
is easier talk to: boys or girls?: say what? Gosh the qns aren't coordinated with the topic!

Do You Ever…
Sit on the internet waiting for someone special to IM you?: Nah.
Save MSN conversations: Not really, only when they're interesting
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Only when I have menstruation cramps.
cry because of something someone has said: Uh yes.
pray?: Sometimes.

Have You Ever…
fallen for your best friend?: Nope.
rejected someone: ...
been cheated on: I don't know.
done something you regretted: Plenty of times.
wanted to die: Yes but I didn't mean it.

Who Was The Last Person…
you talked to on the phone: Kelli Kelli Boom Boom
hugged: Ah shit I forgot.
you instant messaged: Daphne?
you laughed with: Bros

Do You…
color your hair: Nope.
ever get off the computer: duh?
habla espanol: w h a t
sprechen sie deutsches: same reaction as above
fight with your parents: Mmhmm
have friends you’ve lost touch with: Yea. A whole bunch of them.
feel happy?: In general, yes.
wish you could fly away.. far, far away?: Always.
believe in God?: Yes.

could you live without the computer?: Nope.
what’s your favorite candy?: None in particular.
whats your favorite fruit?: Oranges :-)
sunrise or sunset?: Anything will do.
what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?: Physical.
trust others way too easily?: Not anymore.
are your fingers cold?: No.
coke or pepsi: neither.

Final Questions…
I want: my surgery to be done now!
I wish: for the truth..
I love: the smell of good food.
I miss: idk..
I fear: for March.
I hear: Jason Mraz coming from the xbox 360
I smell: good food.
I wonder: Who my partner would be for EFL.

guardian angel

2010-02-02T20:04:00.004+08:00

This time, it got to me.
It just did & I feel like sh*t.

And then today I realized I'm very much like you. It's really your choice whether you want to give her a chance or not but you just give it without thinking much because what matters more is that she's already back and that only makes you feel wanted, loved etc.

And honestly, I'm sick of always being there to listen to your nonsense, but I can't stop myself. Your feelings matter to me a lot.

Gosh this is gross. Goodbye.

angels

2010-02-01T20:22:00.004+08:00

I feel like as if I'm physically challenged now.
Really.
I am at such a great disadvantage.

Triangles

2010-01-31T15:26:00.003+08:00

It's been a long, tiring & painful week.
Painful in a physical sense... I guess I've injured my ACL.
If that shit gets real, I'd need ages to recover, and by then I'll lose my fitness bla^3.
(haha get it? Bla to the power of 3 = blablabla)

I'm lame. Okay bye^^

Sigh, I really dislike you, you know. Stop making me feel bad already. I don't like you. Period.

Is it any wonder?

2010-01-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

I think you are so immature for your age, seriously. Please don't go around calling others useless. If you are any good of a use, you would be the one in charge. You so have to agree with me on this. You always let your feelings take over you and then you vent it on others. I mean, that's so damn appropriate and you'd totally love it if people do that you.

Anyway, school has been manageable so far. Great friends are great, they make my life the greatest. Really. And I've been associating with a bunch of '96s lately, & I must say they're such an entertainment. In a good way (Y) I'm also super proud of our C Div Netballers for making such a great improvement and winning their first game. B Div's on Monday, I AM NERVOUS. Okay, so I guess this is all I have for the week.

Gb :>

Within

2010-01-16T15:33:00.002+08:00

First 2 weeks of school weren't as bad as I imagined.

My favourite place in the entire school has to be the little corridor in between 3J's and 3MM's classrooms. The holding school is kinda comfortable, except for the toilets :/

Anyhow, I still miss STC @ Lower Delta. The great-red netball court especially.

So I've gotten my Team Theresian shirt & jersey. It looks okay, I guess.

First round of South-Zone for us will be the week after next. First school we will be playing with is BMSS. I can't remember the actual order but after BMSS, we'll have Cedar, AMKSS & Holy Innocents'.

Because I'm not a chicken

2010-01-03T16:09:00.003+08:00

Hai. You're very unlucky if you happen to be a reader of my blog.

1 says:
hahha i had sex w another girl while at it
HAHAHA shit
I SHOULD RLY STOP
2 says:
shiok or not? (K)
1 says:
okay la
2 says:
1 to 10
1 says:
4 cos its not you
HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
2 says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH FUCK YOU
1 says:
I WAS KIDDING

Hahaha this is rly stupid.

2010

2010-01-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

Jay, please come back soon!
2PM Hwaiting~

& So it's 2010. It's gonna be long year.

Beings

2009-12-28T18:25:00.002+08:00

Today was gr8 fun :)
(Gna do typical blogging in 3, 2, 1..)

Met Shan, she's so nice! Follow me to get my books & uniform^^. Dad fetched us to my place. Met Liz, wanted to jog but we ended up at JP to eat hehe :> Oooh, I ate a lot- sizzling hot plate, Yami & then ate while waiting for Wq at Starbucks. Late galz. I jogged and did sprints w Liz while Shan & Wq played b-ball^.^v Went back to my place, had dinner & ate shrimp wantons^.^v ^.^v

(HAHA, haven't blogged like this in a pretty long time~)

Okay fun!

Stuck

2009-12-27T19:13:00.006+08:00

6 days w/o training kills me.
B-ball with Weiqi and Shan tmr^^
Gonna do my 2.4km tmr too:)
My timing will be super off though.

Gb:}

Sg Idol tonight is it?! So gna watch:)

100th post :)

2009-12-19T11:12:00.002+08:00

Hm, I miss posting here.
2010's coming in about 2 weeks time?
I haven't gotten my books, or uniform, or a new school bag.
Most importantly, a new phone :/
Contemplating on a Samsung Corby^^ Looks so fine :)

Hopefully gna shop with Klsy next week for things. Happy ^^v
Plus no trainings! But we've one friendly on Monday with CTSS.
Must play my best for _. I'm so darn scared now, to be honest.

Lost then found

2009-12-14T19:11:00.004+08:00

TEAMWORK
We can and we should and we must win Westwood :)
Go Stc Netball^^

Jalgayo Nae Sarang

2009-11-28T21:20:00.001+08:00

Gdbye. I'm now @infernaux.lj (Y)
Add if u wna read ;)
Here's for shit, short posts.

très

2009-11-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

Today was gr8.

feel me too

2009-11-26T04:15:00.002+08:00

Class outing later.
BBQ later. Looking forward to awesome dinner later.

Look at the time, I can't sleep. I've turned nocturnal for tonight.
Klsy's coming at 8am later to help with the things.
Just look at the time, it's 4:19. If I go to sleep now, I might never wake up.

It's breakfast already : )
I want cereal

sunlight

2009-11-24T16:33:00.000+08:00

“You’re letting her think you’re emotionally available. You’re letting her think she has a chance. And there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don’t.”

-Grey's Anatomy

expected

2009-11-23T19:54:00.003+08:00

if you see this, by any chance at all, this is for you.
so i guess by getting no reply, it's true. isn't it?

2009-11-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

Of course I can live without you. But what kind of life is that?

90th post : )

2009-11-17T14:26:00.002+08:00

Right now, my brother is disturbing me with his new keychain. It's a turtle with extremely cute face. Hahaha. Gross.

Almost an hour late for training with Wq. Training was tough. Playing Center sucks:( Seriously tiring.

Happy Birthday Brudder :> Hope you find your shoe YA? Ha Ha Ha.

Lunch @ Mr Prata with Zx, Yh, Wq, Mil, Flo, Lx, Sw & Kw(Omg their initials are so cool.). So yea, as usual, we were loud and annoying . . (Y)

Long bus ride. Read. Fell asleep. Continued reading. The book got me thinking.

Gb :)

cold as you

2009-11-16T18:16:00.002+08:00

I think I should get a heater in my room. It's bloody cold in here.
So today, went to school, saw my results. I'm in MM. Well done :| Okay, I'm gonna have to live with that, so whatever. I got my combination anyway (Y)

Went to Vivo for lunch with Nurul, Steph, Eliz, Euns & Shane. Went to JP just to talk about things with Eunice and Steph after that. Sigh, so disturbing.

Okay, need to study, soon. Soon :>

rescue

2009-11-16T01:01:00.002+08:00

You can never make everyone happy - that's a failure.
And that's not the worst.
The worst is that you have to live with your failure.

I feel so useless again. This is when my emotions take control of me, leaving my rational intelligence to it's minimal. Why am I talking like this.

your voice is electric

2009-11-15T12:25:00.004+08:00

I am going partially insane with the things going on around me. I just am. Who knew it could take one person to affect me so damn badly. I can't balance my emotional half of the brain with my rational one. Not that I ever did either. Right now, math is bugging me, I can't absorb anything else already. But that doesn't mean I'm gonna give up. I'm just as lost as everybody else is. Today, I stoned at the practice paper for 2 minutes before reading it. I think the aftermath of yesterday's ♥-2-♥ talk with ~ is getting to me. I don't know why. I think I am not as weak as I thought I was, 'cause if it was any other person who felt the same way I did towards ~, they would've broke down at that point. Or maybe everything's really gone. Maybe. This is just a feeling nobody can explain. There should be an explanation behind this but at the same time, some things are just unexplainable. Agreed?

all night long

2009-11-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

Out with (bah) today.

I'm just tired of everything around me.
I know I can't make you feel better.
I'm sorry.

Heartbeat

2009-11-13T18:51:00.005+08:00

allowing click-to-enlarge :>

Hey. Today was so tiring. So, went for the netball chalet yesterday. Met Wq, Sw & Lx and had breakfast. Lx went to school. The 3 of us met the sec 1s. Ended up playing truth or dare @ subway for hours. I had Shan's tube on my head okay, bad enough. Reached the chalet around 12. (Y) Cycled cycled. Swam after that. Kw's attempt to kill me totally failed. Who knew I was that strong in the water. HAHA. BBQ-ed wtv, learned the guitar in 5 damn minutes, cool or what? Haha, left for Kw's house since we had to go to school the next day, which was today, which was like shit.

Helped out in the NE cluster event today, it was so slack, umpiring little P6 netballers. Went back to Kw's again. I was supposed to leave at 1 or 2 but ended up leaving at 4.30. I went to sleep and told her to wake me up at 3. When I woke up, she went to sleep and told me to wake her up at 4.30. Hahaha. When I reached JP, I was starving so I bought a lot of food. :> Hairpee gurl.

mercy

2009-11-09T15:46:00.004+08:00

Training was so freaking tough today :( We went back to doing the 4S drill and then D&A drills. It sucks. For the first time in 123456789 years, we did the pizza drill and leader reader. Kill me. Doing leader reader with the juniors = running all my life. But wtv, we all survived :> Half way through doing half court I went up to the coach and said, "I'm losing a lot of blood!!!" HAHAHA. But really, I need some iron in my body. Then she went, "You're losing your intelligence cells instead!" And she gave me the look & I winked at her. Awesome? y/n?

Next week onwards, our training will be at CCAB. That'll be gr8. Mr Prata for lunch, mwahahaha.

Oh ya, thank God we didn't do Australian Champs:> Anyway, went for lunch with Yh, Mildred, Wq & Florry. Then to town for Frolicks with Wq. Ate a lot!! So much for, "eating within 45 mins after training".

2009-11-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

I am so tired.
I have nothing to do.
I planned what school bag I want for next year already - I decided on a Nike bag(Y)
I am going to get a iPhone, I don't care - I want a smartphone.
I need emergency shopping. Running out of things to wear.
And I totally forgot about my $140 guards >:/ Why so ex?

I want to . . . paint my nails hahahaha after 123456789 years, I think I should try.

green screen

2009-11-07T14:28:00.003+08:00

Training on Monday.
LAMDA on ~~Monday~~. It's Tuesday

I need a super massive help right now because I can't think of anyone so amazing I can write about. To make things worse, that I know. I already prepared the conversation topics & I hope with all that I have that I would never bump into the examiner ever again.

I feel like going out. Ok after training on Monday will be the best time. I can go out with Kw^^

Anyhow, from where I am sitting - the other end of my bed, my back against the window - there is somewhat of a figure on the frosted glass. It's creepy but guess what it is, or how it got there. My younger brother spread toothpaste all over the frosted side 3 years ago. Nice(Y)

I've never posted a single quiz on my blog

2009-11-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

1. What does the sixteenth text in your inbox say?
-"Sigh be home now"

2. Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?
- Not exactly "with" but "there"

3. Last person you were in the car with?
- Parents

4. Any plans for tomorrow?
- No?

6. When is your birthday?
- 13th Dec

7. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
- I guess

8. Did you kiss anyone on friday?
- Er nope

9. Ever thrown up in public?
- No

10. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
- A song. But that's because I'm listening to it.

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
- Talking to K to the ELLI

12. What is the WORST subject they teach at school?
- Geoggy woggy

13. Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with?
- Nah

14. What is your favorite colour shirt to wear?
- Yellow

15. Have you ever been in a car accident?
- Go-kart counts?

16. Whats the closest thing to you that's green?
- Ikea stool

17. What would you like to be doing right now?
- EAT oh my gawd, I am hungry.

18. Write down some lyrics to the song your listening to.
- "In the dark of the night I can hear you calling my name"

19. How many dogs do you have?
- 0

20. Is anything bugging you right now?
- I guess.

21. How is life going for you right now?
- Not too good?

22. Is there someone you care about more than yourself?
- I had.

23. What made you laugh today?
- "Karrrr-bond"

24. What was the last film you watched?
- 500 Days of Summer

25. What's the last conversation you had about?
- Er things, stupid things.

26. What were you doing at 7:00 this morning?
- I woke up to see the time. It was exactly 7am.

27. Do you like your hair long or short?
- Short.

28. Do you want to see somebody right now?
- Not really.

29. Do you like the rain?
- Yea.

30. Do you think you'll have a Valentine this year?
- Its over.

31. The last person you kissed needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
- If the kiss was a dare, no.

32. Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
- Depends who it is.

33. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?
- Though things are going bad, I like it this way. Haha idk why.

34. How do you feel about girls smoking?
- None of my business.

34. Could you see yourself with someone forever?
- No one that I can think of now.

35. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
- Its 11 already?

36. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
- If the person isn't a monster, yea.

37. Do you forgive and forget?
- Not easily, but yea.

38. Do you trust people?
- Certain.

39. What are you not looking forward to?
- Next week.

40. Do you get mad easily?
- Yea.

41. Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
- Hahah I don't know.

42. Do you have strange dreams?
- Yes, a lot.

43. Ever licked someone’s cheek or forehead?
- Nope.

44. Last time you fell asleep in someone’s arms?
- A month ago.

45. When did you last throw up?
- Ages ago.

46. What do you have on you at all times?
- under garments hahaha

47. Would you go out in public without getting dressed up or put together?
- No ho ho

48. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
- Fruity

49. Favourite musician or group?
- How can I ever answer this.

50. Favourite film of all time?
- Er I don't know. I'm not much of a movie person.

51. Favourite computer game?
- I don't play computer games :>

52. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
- I forgot.

53. Think back five months ago, were you single?
- I still am now. But I'm sure I was happier 5 months ago -_-

54. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
- Hahaha I guess.

55. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- I don't think so?

56. Last thing you bought?
- Mango juice.

57. Are you a jealous person?
- Yeah.

58. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
- not at all

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
- Yes hahahaha alex (Y)

60. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so, how many times?
- Yes. Idk.

61. Do you like to cuddle/snuggles?
- No.

62. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
- Aa

63. How far away is the last person you hugged?
- Far away.

64. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
- I'm talking to someone now. But if I wasn't, no.

65. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
- Very different pleaseee

66. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
- . . . . . HAH

67. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
- Evian Mineral water forever (L)

68. Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
- Nope

69. What is the last thing you said out loud?
- "Omg... blablabla"

70. When was the last time you cried?
-

71. Do you have friends you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
- Yes

72. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
- Waiting for a reply.

73. What can't you wait for?
- This year to end.

74. Have you ever told anyone you would marry them?
- Haha no.

75. What's the worst way to say "i love you?"
- "(L) u" Hahaha idk why.

76. Seven days from now will you be in a relationship?
- No hhahaa

77. Are you mad about anything?
- Not really.

78. What is the last thing you got in trouble for with your parents?
- For eating smth I'm not supposed to. Hahahaha

79. Are you mean?
- I can be too nice. But I'm mean to the rest of the world.

80. Were you happy when you woke up today?
- No

81. Has a boy/girl called you babe or baby in the past two days?
- Hahaha yes

82. Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
- Yes.

83. Do you have anything that belongs to a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- I have no boyfriend/girlfriend

84. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
- In my stomach, yes. Real ones, no, I don't want that either ha ha ha.

85. How long do you think you will live?
- God knows.

86. Does it bother you when people respond with one word?
- No. I guess it bothers people more cos I usually give one-word responses.

87. Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?
- Yes

88. Who disgusts you?
- Nobody.

89. Name one thing people think about you that's not true?
- They think I don't cry a lot. HA

90. What would you do if your best friend(s) turned gay?
- What can I do?

91. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
- Its straight.

92. Do you drink tea?
- Tea :(

93. What do you feel about strawberries covered in chocolate?
- Horny. rofl.

94. Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
-

95. Have you ever stripped for money?
- No.

96. Is the last person you kissed more than a year older than you?
I haven't kissed anyone :o

97. Ever kissed someone with the letters c, a, p,d, q, s or j as their first initial
- Ooooooh, no.

98. Two days from now this time, where will you be?
- Training my guts out in school.

99. Do you think you are a good person?
- Yes. Minus all the little devilish things I've done. Hahha

100. Who are your favourite people?
- My idols?

2009-11-06T22:12:00.001+08:00

Behind your lies
I can see the secrets you don’t show.

You take the best things from me
Then everything gets empty
That’s not a world that I need.

You painted it red.

Free falling

2009-11-05T18:34:00.004+08:00

As long as this continues, I'll hang in here.
I'll keep my promise. Don't worry.